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Date: Wednesday, October 31, 2007 Time: 10:50 PM
ok, fine i'll tell you it's not all because i'm being emo by choice alright? his death anniversary is coming up the day that HE left this world the day that concluded that I would NEVER see him again how do you think that makes ME feel? sure, you were close to him but you never actually LIKED him you never LIKED him the way I did okay? he was a brother to you but to me he was more than that, ok? he wasnt just one of those random guys in our gang he was the only one really that was special.... i know it sounds cheesy, but i cant really help it i miss him, Mlissa, and planning his anniversary is harder than expected every thing i have to do for this thing is just torturing me will he like it? would he want us to do this? it's confusing, it's hurting, it's mind straining i know i volunteered to do this, thinking it would make me somehow feel better but in reality, it's killing me on the inside it's eating me up it's making me feel terrible on the inside no matter how many times i try and hide the feeling, it wont go away it never will i dont want this job heck, i dont even want to be a part of it but i promised and i keep my promises...all the time... because Daniel always kept his............. (typed on 31st October 2007) |